Loving Until it Hurts

Dear friends,  

First off, please forgive me as I am still trying to figure this blog thing out. I don't even know if people are seeing it. Well, if not, Imguess it's a nice private place to journal about the things in lie I am passionate about and at times overwhelmed by in life as I'm waiting on God's timing. I hope to look back one day and be encouraged by the growth in my own walk with him, and give Him Glory for answered prayers. :)

Have you ever had one of those days, or even weeks, where what you see going on in the World around you or the lives of ones you hold dear hurts so bad that it leaves you in puddles of tears? You want to grab hold of them and say, "STOP! Can't you see what you are doing? Continuing on this path will only lead to further heartbreak and destruction! 
This week, as I was preparing dinner the local news came on. My husband and I listened in shock and disbelief, our hearts sank and then tears just flowed from my eyes uncontrollably as I heard a familiar young persons name from one of our children's close friend groups for years....arrested.  Now, their name, the person they are dating and both of their charges are in all the local media outlets and their families suffer, especially their baby. My husband, out loud exclaimed, "What is with these kids!?! When will they listen!?!" As I wept for this young person, he held me, we prayed and he expressed nhis heart's prayer that maybe this would open the eyes of our two wilful wanderers.   We are parents who understand this pain well. This particular young person is void of parents, both were into this scene,  one has died and the other still held captive to addiction.  

What should be our response? Prayer. Continuing to show God's Grace, Mercy and Unconditional Love. It's not an easy task, because in our pain, it is so much easier to be reactive, negative and allow ourselves to succumb to the feelings of hopelessness.

The Aching Heart of A Mom

     As my heart aches from the "stuff" going on in our life I want nothing more than to cry and at points throw up my hands and give up.  I cry out to God, "Why? What have I/am I done/doing wrong? How much longer? Where's the good in this or what is the point of responding in a Christ like way when you repeatedly get hurt in response?" I see all these other stay at home wives with all their wonderful articles on raising their children to follow Christ and daughters of the important role of being at home.  It is definitely what I have wanted for my children and daughters.  It's painful and I confess I am envious of the families I know who have "perfect" children who haven't abandoned their Faith, treat them with respect, and are motivated to help around the home or even themselves.

No, I am not giving up. I am just looking for a more private way to vent since I have steered away from a fb status vent because it only attracts the false support and finger pointers in the Church. That is the other issue we have is lack of community here locally.  It seems sad that the only true community I have are a group of Godly women online,  most whom I have never met.

It is sweltering hot out today but I think I need tomwalj and pray this hurt away.



 

Homemade Pop Tarts REALLY Do Exist!

So, it has been a rough week. Some things are personal and I just
don't know that it should be shared on a social media outlet, at least not
now, while we try and figure out the best way to deal with this matter.
My heart is troubled and confused and fearful with this matter and I am left
with the only thing I have known to bring me comfort and peace over the past
6+ years and that is my complete reliance on God for intervention and protection
in the midst of difficult times in life. He's all I have and all I need and daily, okay, sometimes hourly, need to remind myself that His plan is bigger and that I need to 
completely surrender everything... EVERYTHING to Him!

Next up, I suddenly found myself very Tuesday. I believe it was food poisoning.
I felt I was letting my family down because, there was no homemade dinner, which meant there were not leftovers to put in containers so, there were no lunches for the following work day. I was aware I had let my family down and prayed they could understand and forgive me. When Mom gets sick, EVERYONE feels the effects of it! I still have two baskets of laundry to catch up on folding, and a 70th Birthday meal to organize for my Father-in-law for tomorrow night and currently no car to get out and about.( and it would be over an hour walk to get to the next town) God bless my husband though. He just called and asked if I wanted him to rent a car and have it sent to the house for me to get out and get all my tasks completed! I love that man!

Now, I want to get to the cheeriest part of my week. So, my dear friend posted a photo from her trip to New York of this beautifully created Latte and a homemade Pop Tart. HOMEMADE POP TART!?! I had never heard of them! So, I set out to search my friend Google and guess what I found? HOMEMADE POP TART RECIPE! These... are on my task
list today, and my children and my husband are going to be beyond excited when they get to taste these beautiful creations this weekend! I am so excited to have this recipe and know that they are a much healthier option than the one's you can purchase in the store. I have to find an appropriate frosting recipe for the top, but I am sure it's nothing more than a little icing sugar, milk and vanilla mixed together.

Here is the link to the recipe.Homemade Pop Tarts

Have a blessed weekend friends!

<3 Chrysta

May 20, 2014

Thank you for stopping by my blog today.

As you can tell it is still a work in progress.

I am a slowly getting things in place, but

I admit it is time consuming and I do find

myself a bit overwhelmed trying to figure out

how to design and begin posting a blog for my

friends and family to see. I suppose the first time I 

receive a comment I will know people can see it. ;)

The longer it takes me to figure this out, the longer the 

list of recipes I want to share will be.  :)

Thank you for your patience while I figure this blog out.

Blessings,

Chrysta

Well, here goes....my first post!
Thanks for stopping by friends!
Please be patient as try and figure this blogging thing out.  I am not quite sure what the blog world looks like for me beyond sharing recipes.  I definitely know that I can get post done quicker on a desktop over a tablet. Maybe checking other blogs will give me ideas,
Thanks to my dear friend Marci over at http://thankful-homemaker.blogspot.ca for suggesting I should start a blog to share recipes.
I would love any advice on how to set up blogs.