As my heart aches from the "stuff" going on in our life I want nothing more than to cry and at points throw up my hands and give up. I cry out to God, "Why? What have I/am I done/doing wrong? How much longer? Where's the good in this or what is the point of responding in a Christ like way when you repeatedly get hurt in response?" I see all these other stay at home wives with all their wonderful articles on raising their children to follow Christ and daughters of the important role of being at home. It is definitely what I have wanted for my children and daughters. It's painful and I confess I am envious of the families I know who have "perfect" children who haven't abandoned their Faith, treat them with respect, and are motivated to help around the home or even themselves.
No, I am not giving up. I am just looking for a more private way to vent since I have steered away from a fb status vent because it only attracts the false support and finger pointers in the Church. That is the other issue we have is lack of community here locally. It seems sad that the only true community I have are a group of Godly women online, most whom I have never met.
It is sweltering hot out today but I think I need tomwalj and pray this hurt away.
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